The change in seasons always brings back memories. Fall is great. I am heading off to Ohio tues. Car-pooling with a friend, we are going are separate ways to support raise. Don't know if we will see the pretty leaves, since I'll be driving through the night. I'm the night owl, so my pal can snooze if he wants...
I grew up as a missionary kid, and thought that the greatest thing ever is traveling to different countries. I still think that foreign missions is in my future, but the longer I am at the House of Prayer, the more I cherish sitting before the Lord and praying for the countries I want to go to.
My heart has been changed, my perception of missions, my understanding of serving. . . It is all about God, and not about what I can do in my own strength. We need to do things. In order to help someone, I need the wisdom and heart of God for them. He does so much more than I ever could. I want to have a message to share when I go somewhere. I want to be firmly rooted, and grounded in the stream of love that flows from God's heart. I am not in a hurry to leave this wonderful room of friends, that sit and worship God. I am learning to be a friend of God. I am learning to inquire in His temple. I am learning to talk with him, and ask him to let me hold what he is carrying. The burden of his heart. I have been thinking. I'm not the only one that can't wait till the day every tear will be wiped from my eyes. Not just you either. . . Isaiah 58 tells of how Jesus was a man of sorrow, aquainted with grief, despised and rejected... He still is that man. Who wipes his tears, who hears him cry, who comforts him? He is also a joyful, happy God. Can't describe how He IS ALL things at once, but He's God.. God can't be fully grasped, He's too big. But anyway, He can't wait for the day to throw off the sorrow and the mourning. His sorrow will be turned to joy, His mourning into dancing, He will brush off the ashes and shine in His beauty and his glory. He is to be feared and to be praised. The mans of sorrow, is the author of Love, Joy, Peace etc. etc... HE is amazing! I have only begun to know this man that calls me 'Friend'. I want his heart, I want to partner with God. I want him to confide in me the deep things of hs heart. It says in Psalms that the Lord confides in those who fear him, and fear of God is the beginning of wisdom.. These are all thoughts that are running through my mind at the moment. God of justice who cares for the sparrow and the abused orphan. Father of light, a Rock, Refuge, Tower I run into, 'O my Strength, my Shield, Deliverer, mighty to seek and save the lost, Shepard, Servant of All. . . God has deeply moved my heart on the issue of orphans, human trafficking and the sex slave trade. Yesterday was the official 10 year anniversary for IHOP night and day 24/7 prayer and worship. I was moved again for the works of Justice being planned for women and orphans.. I don't know my part yet, or how I will plug in, but God is establishing me in His love for these ones.. It's only a matter of time before He sets me loose on whatever it is... It will be GOOD. :)
Blessings,
Steph Queen
