There is more to it than this, I know it.... .get fired up

There is a flame that is in my heart that has been sheltered in a bubble for 6 months. Now i'm out in the open and exposed to the elements. I refuse to be snuffed out. Treading through a mine field of water bombs, i am determined to make it through alive and not only that, i want to come out on the other side a blazing bonfire! There is more to life than just getting by, floating along, sitting pretty, aimlessly wandering etc. There is a purpose and I am pursuing it to the end. I am not going to wait for it to knock on my door, or whisper in my ear. I'm all about getting out in the city streets, hollering, day and night. I am on a mission to find the one my heart loves. Nothing else satisfies. Staying under my cozy little covers ain't gonna cut it. I refuse to be a little red coal inside a fireplace with a little screen around it. Those without vision parish. Surrounded by the wanderers of this world, I press on toward the goal to win the prize of which calls me heavenward.....
Seek first his kingdom...
-SQ

The unknown, untapped, irresistable future....

Well, I have graduated, yet again. Today, I look back on the past 6 months at the Fire in the Night internship, with a thankful heart. There is a song that one of the musicians sings here, and a phrase in it says "I finally found where I belong...". I apply that to my heart. I have long since come to terms with the fact that my home is not a place on a map. I have experienced in my heart in the last few months, my home really is at the feet of Jesus. There is no other place I'd rather be, or where I would feel more at peace or at "home". So, when asked the dreaded question that every "mk" hates to answer, "where are you from?", I may not say it out loud, but inside I know where I came from, where I am and where I am going all point to God. God isn't a place, he is my home, he is where I belong. Ok, tempted to start preachin' but will keep it down to the minimal :)I have so many things I could ramble on to try to describe what I feel inside, what I have learned etc. but I leave you with this: I am determined to pursue a life of loving when I don't feel like it, listening when I want to be heard, giving when I don't have and when I need, speaking up when I am scared to death, trying one more time after the billionth rejection, keeping silent when I want to make myself noticed, sitting still and waiting when I want to run around and make things happen, trust when I want to earn my way,... -bottom line, I want to be like the greatest man who ever walked the earth, the man that steps down from the highest throne and bows to serve me in love. I want to pursue the one who relentlessly pursues my heart. I want to get to know and become like my friend and savior Jesus. I haven't a clue what lies ahead or how I will get to wherever the "unknown" takes me, but I am leaning, and trusting and though I don't know the future, I know I am in good hands :)
-Steph Queen