Blake

I don't know my cousin Blake super well, but I really care about him. Bless his heart. He needs some miracles and healing. He's in ICU. Wish I could be there. I have been telling all my night watch friends at IHOP (international house of prayer), to pray for him. I looked up his blog to see the updates. I cried when I clicked on the link for the definition of the procedure they are going to do on monday. Man, it breaks my heart to see the pictures of someone's leg all gashed open. I thought of what Blake must look like, and it makes me cry. So sad, and so painful. I can't even imagine. I know there isn't anything I could physically do to help, besides hugging my aunt and uncle, and offering some coffee maybe. :) I am praying all through my day. He's really been on my heart. And his little boy Tresden, Blake's brothers and family... Guys, I love you all. Never got close to my family like I would have wanted. Living overseas, kinda puts a hold on friendships sometimes. But.. I have today to love and get to know and the days ahead. God touch Blake's body right now, heal every hurt, every pain, and heal his heart. Reveal your love and your power to restore, mend and carry him through anything. Love ya Blake,
Steph

God have mercy .......

Argh. I need help guys. My house is up for rent, I am behind on my payments and in debt. I am probably making a bigger fuss about this than I need to, I know I am. God is bigger than, and mightier than, richer than... ahhhh. Show me the money is what I am thinking. errrr.... I am stuck against a rock and a hard place. My Romania funds have come in with flying colors, butttt.. on the "home" front, financial hole is getting bigger. What is God up to? Blessing on one hand and a lesson on the other? He's my rock and my fortress. So I am pretty much put in a position where I have to full on not just lean but climb up on and hold on for dear life to the rock. Ok so this isn't life or death, but it's HARD buddy. mmmmmmmmmmmmmm. .. ok, well aren't you glad you checked out my blog today!!! :) Tune in later to see the great miracle that God is doing/did/gonna do, real soon. How just when I thought it was too late, He turned it all around, because He is the God of the break through, midnight hour, perfect loving, good, good, God and father. He is my friend, He is in control, He hasn't and won't let me go. He is my Rock, and though it's painful sometimes to lean, He is steady and firm beneath my feet. I love you Lord. Show me mercy, your loving kindness, grace, grace. ~SQ

I'm back

so this is a short intro into my 'blog come back'. i am still up and it's 7:13 am. need to get dreaming quick. so please tune in soon, i will have something a little newer and updated :) good night.
Steph

Orphan Justice Center

Hello friends. It has been a long time since I've written. I wanted to share something I have been stirred by deeply. Here at IHOP Kansas City, there has been a revelation from the heart of the Father, to care for and take in the poor, needy, orphaned and widowed. A center for orphans is in the planning stages and I am so eager to be apart of it, I can't wait! It is called the "Orphan Justice Center". The mission will be to restore and provide stability for the children in need of healing and in search of a family of there own. A community of 24/7 night and day prayer to be their support, equestrian therapy, along with horticulture (gardens)- these are a few of the methods of therapy. Plans are being established to purchase land and get things started by this coming summer. Be in prayer for this center, and for direction as to how I will be apart of all of this.
orphanjusticecenter.com

Sincerely,
Stephanie Queen

God really does have a purpose and plan for me.. from the beginning!

Guys, i am blown away, in awe and can hardly believe i am that special to GOD! i have done so many odd jobs, made random, spontaneous decisions, i have been so unaware and have felt aimless and lived without purposeful actions to move me through life so far. The last few years, i have made some decisions on purpose to get me going towards something i wanted to pursue, but majority of my life, i have just done what interested me at the time.
Such a testimony of Jesus and God's perfect, perfect, perfect leadership in my life!! Wohhhh, like for real. just by getting involved with things that i like, God actually did on purpose in my mothers' womb, in me, to shape and guide and direct my heart to where i am today??!! God has ordained and written down everyday i'm alive on earth as we now know it, before even my mom and dad even knew each other!!!?? Never once, coerceing me or pushing me to do anything out of my will, but with every yes in my heart, whether i realized it or not, all my seeking after the desires planted in my heart by God, they are turning out to be a garden of delight to my Father in Heaven. . . it's all up to me to open the door of my heart and let him come in and clear all the weeds and transplant some stuff, but oh my goodness! God, ... he is sooo so good to me.
all my seemingly, haphazard, miscellaneous, disconnectedness, mistakes, failures, joys and sorrows- he really does make all things new, his mercies are new every every every morning!, he really does make beauty from ashes, i really do have the 1000% undivided attention of God. like, he's looking intently into my heart, eyes, soul, and he says he wants to be friends??!
had a meeting with a guy named Derek, yesterday. he and his wife are developing a ministry called "The Orphan Justice Center". I left the meeting so stirred and overwhelmed at how i can see a vision of the future with this and how all i've done up till now has been intentionally done in my life to prepare and shape my heart.
don't ever doubt. God has his eye on the sparrow, and your life, your dreams are not in vain.Keep believing.
~Steph