God really does have a purpose and plan for me.. from the beginning!

Guys, i am blown away, in awe and can hardly believe i am that special to GOD! i have done so many odd jobs, made random, spontaneous decisions, i have been so unaware and have felt aimless and lived without purposeful actions to move me through life so far. The last few years, i have made some decisions on purpose to get me going towards something i wanted to pursue, but majority of my life, i have just done what interested me at the time.
Such a testimony of Jesus and God's perfect, perfect, perfect leadership in my life!! Wohhhh, like for real. just by getting involved with things that i like, God actually did on purpose in my mothers' womb, in me, to shape and guide and direct my heart to where i am today??!! God has ordained and written down everyday i'm alive on earth as we now know it, before even my mom and dad even knew each other!!!?? Never once, coerceing me or pushing me to do anything out of my will, but with every yes in my heart, whether i realized it or not, all my seeking after the desires planted in my heart by God, they are turning out to be a garden of delight to my Father in Heaven. . . it's all up to me to open the door of my heart and let him come in and clear all the weeds and transplant some stuff, but oh my goodness! God, ... he is sooo so good to me.
all my seemingly, haphazard, miscellaneous, disconnectedness, mistakes, failures, joys and sorrows- he really does make all things new, his mercies are new every every every morning!, he really does make beauty from ashes, i really do have the 1000% undivided attention of God. like, he's looking intently into my heart, eyes, soul, and he says he wants to be friends??!
had a meeting with a guy named Derek, yesterday. he and his wife are developing a ministry called "The Orphan Justice Center". I left the meeting so stirred and overwhelmed at how i can see a vision of the future with this and how all i've done up till now has been intentionally done in my life to prepare and shape my heart.
don't ever doubt. God has his eye on the sparrow, and your life, your dreams are not in vain.Keep believing.
~Steph