Monday, November 12, 2007

Trying to keep it simple when in over my head

Feeling like i've been put in a pressure cooker with no release valve. So much is being dug up and brought to the surface, like my heart, mind and soul are a big stretch of highway under construction. Speed limit reduced but have the urge to speed through to get to the end, or conclusion of understanding. Road is narrowed and bumpy and curving unexpectantly. See people speed ahead of me and want to catch up and then got someone on my tail saying I'm taking too long and being too careful. In a hurry to get somewhere, and got all kinds of detours, stop signs, red and yellow lights and slow moving vehicles in my path. .... Hi. just feeling a little overwhelmed, that's all. Nothing to do with anything but me and my needing to grow. Becoming more of who God wants me to be is a process for sure. Not a smooth, easy ride sometimes :) God disciplines the ones he loves like a father does for his children. I am loved, .... :) If you are discouraged in your pursuit of the infinite wealth of knowledge, revelation, understanding, application, coal touching your lips, seal imprinting your heart with the stamp of God's ownership of your soul, be encouraged. God is love. Love is your inheritance. Count the cost... to what extent is the price too much in order to recieve the fullness of God's love in your life? ... He gave it all for us. ...Remember ..the cross. My heart's desire is to be unreservedly abandoned and emptied of myself.. at all cost. Only through his grace. God is so amazing.
Blessings,
Stephanie Q.

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