I love the way He leads me. The Lamb that was led like a lamb to the slaughter, He was led by His Father. This very same Lamb is my Shepherd. He leads me as He was led... I love the leadership of God. It is so kind, so sweet and so wise. At this moment in time I have a lingering longing for distant lands and foreign sounds. In the air I smell the faint hint of airplane engines and the rush of making my flight. I smell the fragrance of someones perfume that takes me to a place I've yet to have gone to, but I place I long to see with my own eyes. I am drawn to pray for places I've never been to and in the process I find myself crying with the tenderness of God's heart. I long to speak and be immersed in a language and culture not my own. I long to fully embrace a people I have never met and love Jesus together with them. I long for the open night sky and the bustle of night life as prayers and worship stir in my heart and escape through my mouth. I long to take the house of prayer to the streets under the stars and touch the very people I have been praying for over the past few years. I long to rub up against a community of people that I can serve, minister and burn with for Jesus. I want to eat with them, worship with them and reach the lost, broken, poor and oppressed with them. I want a family bigger than my own, and a language not familiar to me to become second nature. I want to be beauty and light in the dark and the painful places of peoples lives. I want to be a testimony that my friend that has held me in the night for the past 5 years, it is this friend that has brought beauty from all my ashes. I want to go take the beauty He has given me and run to the ash heap. I want to look those covered in ashes in the face, embrace them and tell them of what the Lord has done for me. I want to be apart of seeing the transformation that God wants to do in their lives too! I want to be a sweet smelling fragrance amid the poor, the hurting and the hardened hearts. I want to be myself, the soft, gentle, beautiful flower that God has made from my life- I want to be that flower in the midst of the barren wilderness of peoples lives. Oh that I would be JOY in the midst of someones sorrow and in the midst of their pain. Oh that I would be nice to see and soft to touch, a sweet welcoming aroma that bears witness to the restoring hands of Jesus Christ. It is all for His glory, all for His name. He can put me anywhere, and have me serve anywhere; All I ask is GIVE ME JESUS wherever I go and wherever I serve. All I ask is that the Glory and the Beauty of Jesus would be my sustenance, my food, water, and my air. Abba, fill me with light, truth, the knowledge of You, and with experience after experience of how great Your love truly is. I love You Lord, You are my Joy and my Delight. (check out a song by Lisa Gottshall called "All is For Your Glory"- It's my new favorite -SQ)