This is the life...

I have come to the conclusion that I am to pursue a life, not of comfort and ease, but of quite the opposite. I have painfully become aware that I am to be content with being uncomfortable, and frequently encounter circumstances that develop humility. Also, I find that instead of the top of the mountain, over the hump, ahead of the game moments; it is the valley, the struggle over the obstacles, the last place in the race; those are just the places where I am to live, learn, be faithful, trusting, and hopeful. As much as I don't like not knowing, not having, not making the cut etc. I know in my heart, I am to embrace the awkward conversations, I am to make the fumbling, stuttering, humble public prayers, I am to pursue again and again after repeated rejection, I am to say yes, when I don't have the means to follow through on my own, I am to do what God wants, not what I want, even, and especially when, it HURTS. I am to pursue a life of yielding to the cultivation, pruning- I am to brave the elements, the storms, the deserts, the wilderness.... Well, wish I could say this is comforting news. If it was, it wouldn't be very beneficial.... carrying a cross isn't easy. Good thing I know the one who is kind in his judgement, gentle in his discipline, loving in his touch, merciful in his correction, understanding in all wisdom and perfect in leadership of my life. God is so good. There is only one God, one way, one life. Living for God is where I am most alive. So I will press on toward the goal to win the prize, .. to press on.. that is to be my life... it isn't all about the instant attainment. .. seek first the kingdom of God... God is faithful and true to his word. My job is to keep on keeping on and believe that even when I don't see it. .. it's not about the fun, the excitement, the thrill- it's finding out that it's fun, exciting, thrilling to be loved by GOD. We are LOVED by GOD. That is worth thinking about for a long while. Ok, preachin' a little .. i am an mk.. :)
Steph Q